Puppy Went To Heaven On February 15th

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My sweet, darling boy went to Heaven. I’ve delayed writing this post (or any post, for that matter – on any of my blogs) because I’m still pretty much a damn mess. Just even beginning this post is proving much, much harder than I thought. It’s been a month and a half, surely I can at least update my blog on the situation.

But no, this is just tearing me up too much. I will go ahead and post what I’ve written here, just so it’s out there. I will have to come back, however, to finish the post. I just can’t do it right now.

I told my mom last night that it feels like I’m not even taking my Prozac.

So yeah, I’m kind of a wreck. Will come back later with more of the story.

Time To Say Goodbye

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Jan 272013

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My sweet, darling “Puppy” is going to cross the Rainbow Bridge soon. Very soon. I’m thinking perhaps Tuesday or Wednesday. I’m spending every single second I can with him. Recorded a video of him the other day. Then last night recorded a video in the dark of him just so I could capture some of his barks. (Neighborhood twilight bark – best time for it. They all get to talking to each other.)

I’m completely, utterly heartbroken.

And just last week (or was it the week before?) we lost our Lucita, my momma’s sweet and precious chihuahua, whom I proudly called my sister. And she was only five years old. And last January we lost our darling Buddy, my dad’s big ‘ol dog with the booming bark who grabbed all our hearts straight from the word “go”. I’ve actually just recently been able to look at pictures of him without feeling a knife in my gut.

I’m also sick. Or something. On December 31, I started feeling sick and that turned out to be the flu and lasted two weeks. And with all that coughing, I either hurt my ribcage again like I did in 2004 when I had walking pneumonia or I set off a gallbladder attack. Or who knows, with my lucky luck, maybe both. Heh. And I feel kind of relapse-y – not quite as sick as I did (thank God!) but still not so great. I really hope I don’t have walking pneumonia again.

Anyway, I’ve got nothing. I’ve just got nothing. Nada. Zilch. Zero.

If I owe you some work, I’m sorry. If I’m entirely unsociable, I’m sorry. If you come over and I’m in pajamas and filthy with greasy hair, can’t help it. (Yes, the other day I was like that and saw Mark’s uncle, the cable guys, and my brand new next door neighbor. First impressions. hmm…)

Lucy and Lucky …within weeks of each other. And some bad “people health” news regarding stupid ass tumors, too. Two people in our lives. Whose stories are not mine to tell, but each of their situations make me sad and angry.

I think I’m starting 2013 facing Apollo Creed. And I had such grander, “get it together” plans.

Most of today I’ve just spent sitting here, staring. (Lucky’s wound smells so bad that I woke with a migraine, so I can’t do much else anyways but…) I’m feeling somewhat better, but I just feel like nothing.

You know? Just nothing.

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Amazingly Beautiful Tapestry

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Jan 172013

One of my favorite things at Soul-Flower.com is their tapestries. I’ve purchased one and I’m always going back and looking at new ones they put in the store.

This one here is nothing short of amazing. I mean amazing. It’s so beautiful! And I had no idea that cloth could be 3D. That’s pretty cool. But beyond that, the print is beautiful all on its own.

Isn’t it just incredible? I’ve always loved sugar skulls, so I absolutely love it!

What do you guys think about it? Do you think it’s gorgeous ….or a little creepy? Are you creeped out by sugar skulls or do you think they’re beautiful?

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Miss You, Skeeter Bess!!

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Jan 162013

I’ve met some wonderful and sweet people and made some great friends from blogging. I don’t even know where I’d be without people like Loretta or John P. or a tongazillion others!

One of those sweet people I met lived in Hawaii and I called her Skeet. She went by Skeeter Bess online, but her name was really Anita. She was such a nice and loving and interesting and strong person. Her blog was called: Skeet’s Stuff.

She moved back home to Texas several years ago, and not too long ago she unexpectedly passed away. It was so shocking and really made me so sad. And I see her picture popping up on social media from time to time and they are sweet, gentle reminders.

This morning, however, her picture turned up not once, but twice. And in somewhat unexpected places. I was looking at my personal FB profile and didn’t even realize I had a GoodReads thing on there and there she was:

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And what a great picture that is of her, too! So lively and almost like she’s reaching out to us, you know?

Perhaps she is reaching out to me today, maybe that’s exactly it.

So then I’m over on the internet archive, digging up some old posts I’d lost for my bookworm blog and lo and behold, my MyBloglog widget is on there. And who is the ONLY one there on it? Not even my OWN pic is there!!! But there is our Skeet:

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Now how trippy is that? The Universe is really cool sometimes. My Higher Power is so cool the way He weaves things together to help us get the message. A book widget on my FB profile — and there is Skeet — digging up bookworm posts – and there is ONLY Skeet. It’s all woven together perfectly like a lovely, little package.

You know, Skeet used to do this cool thing on her blog on Tuesdays, Guess The Pic. Or something like that. Like she’d take a pic of a very small piece of a thing, post that, and have us all guess what the thing was. I really looked forward to that every week. Maybe soon I’ll try to start that here in her honor.

Love you, Skeet!!

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Lost My TallBoy Again…

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Jan 142013

My sweet, darling angel baby boy, TallBoy, has left me again. And you know what? It really freaking hurt this time. Like an ache.

He went back to school …five hours away! He was here for a lovely, loooong break for Christmas and it was so delightfully nice to have him around again. Even if we didn’t hang out all that much (I’ve been sick, taking care of sick dog, and he had a busy social schedule) it was just nice knowing he was around. Things felt right again.

Cry Baby

I remember I was so not ready to give him up when it came time for kindergarten. I felt almost “mad” at society for demanding I “give up” my child for three hours a day. ha! I’m a super goob, I know. You don’t have to tell me. Look – I live inside this head. You think it’s crazy from out there? Ha!

So yeah, I cried this morning when he drove off. Like I said, though, I’ve been sick, our Puppy’s been sick, and so I’m just kind of worn down. Also, when he left in August he went to school early for band camp. So it was sort of a trick to my psyche – he wasn’t leaving for school, he was leaving for band camp. And no one else was starting school. So I think my brain was a little tricked.

Dreaming of Walton’s Roberson’s Mountain

I really would love to just be the Walton’s. I can’t stand living away from my folks and now to think, I quite possibly will have to do the same with my kids makes me ill. Roberson’s Mountain. Sounds good. Sounds really good.

When any of the chillrens get hitched, we just build a bigger dining room table. Hell, Mark’s a carpenter. Right? Am I right?

And you know what else? I wouldn’t mind driving around one of those old cars either! And the horn. Oh man, that horn.

Hey guess what! When one of our local gas stations changed owners, there were lots of changes – some pretty good ones, too. But the new sound behind the clerk’s counter when a vehicle pulls up to a pump? Yep! The sound of the Walton’s horn!!! Every time I hear it, I’m just taken back to my childhood, watching the Walton’s and wishing I could have their life.

And now with my offspring starting to stray from the nest, I’m wishing that all over again.

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P.S. Arrgghh! Just as I was finishing up this post, I took Puppy out front to go potty. And there was the empty curb …Patrick’s truck sorely missing! I miss my baby!!

P.P.S. Speaking of Puppy, I know I need to do a new Puppy update. I will soon. I promise.

Ain’t That The Truth!

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Jan 032013

People who’ve had three 10 lb. babies should be exempt from coughs.
People with chronic migraines should be exempt from coughs.
People with coughs should be exempt from allergy attacks.
Puppies with huge, gaping surgical wounds should be exempt from tummy problems.

Puppy and I have spoken. Let it be.

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